Why Uncomfortable Christian?

“I didn’t go to religion to make me happy. I always knew a bottle of Port would do that. If you want a religion to make you feel really comfortable, I certainly don’t recommend Christianity.”

—–C.S. Lewis

Isn’t that quote great? And so true. So why is my name “Uncomfortable Christian”? I want to clarify a few things, I’m not “uncomfortable” around homosexuals in some sort of homophobic way, I’m not “uncomfortable” around people who have had abortions in a judgmental hateful way, I’m not “uncomfortable” around liberals because of their heathen ways (kidding, not all are heathens.) What I am uncomfortable around, is the blatant double standards, the huge angry confrontations, hypocrisy, people blame shifting and completely missing the point. People saying they want diversity but not extending that to Christians, wanting free speech but cutting out the Bible. And that feeling like you can’t talk about it without being labeled as hateful.

When did me disagreeing with you turn into hate?

Ah, uncomfortable subjects…but what are we missing?

1 Corinthians 13:1-3 If I speak in the tongues of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing.

Love is a foundational principle af Christianity, probably the one set of verses almost the whole world can agree on. And yet it gets lost. Love gets lost in disagreements, people trying to “prove” or be “right” disagreements are read as Hate, Actual people get so outraged by certain sin they are hateful. What could possibly be further from the truth of What God said and the example Jesus set for us?

1 John 4:20 Whoever claims to love God yet hates a brother or sister is a liar. For whoever does not love their brother and sister, whom they have seen, cannot love God, whom they have not seen.

Jesus goes even further to state in Matthew 5, comparing anger (and hatred) with murder. Christians being equated with hate, hurts me down to my core. I saw a bumper sticker ont he way to work toady that said “Hate is not afmily value.” It’s targeted against us a s Christians and that saddens me. The fact the the modern Christian church has ever portrayed anything but love saddens me. Because what it all comes down to is this: Have they accepted the love of  God and forgiveness of Jesus for their sins, have they repented, & confessed? Because it’s a yes or no answer. I do believe that Jesus is the only way to heaven and the only way to have real meaning here on earth. Debates on “inexcusable” sins or lifestyle choices really, are in one sense irrelevant. The atheist Gay man is not going to Hell “faster” than the atheist straight one. The woman who had an abortion (and proud of it, gosh darn it) is not on God’s blacklist anymore than I am for lying/coveting/stealing or disrespecting my parents.

James 2:10 For whoever keeps the whole law and yet stumbles at just one point is guilty of breaking all of it.

Perspective people, perspective. I had toyed with the idea of starting a blog like this on and off for awhile, but It wasn’t until I finally sat down and watched this series of 3 videos HERE. That I couldn’t get it out of my head, so this blog was born the next day. I really encourage you to watch them. I think Doug Wilson is a great speaker, makes some excellent points(whether or not you agree with them.) The first 2 videos are part 1 & part 2 of a lecture he did in a auditorium at Indiana University. The 3rd video (2 hours long!) is a Q&A session. Note: lots of interruption/heckling/cussing etc.

Next post will be my review on the series


Abortion & Vegetarianism

In light of the recent filibuster on Abortion. (Anyone else think it’s odd that the DOMA and Filibuster hit so close together?) I thought I’d share some thoughts I had. I am, have always been and always will be against abortion.

Psalm 139:13-14 “For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful,

I get that woman have fought long and hard for rights and as a women I do support that we should be equal. But I don’t agree with women’s right’s eradicating any right infants have. And I definitely don’t agree with their twisted close-my-ears-la-la-la approach of “It’s not a baby” I mean really? really world that so proudly calls themselves scienticifally advanced? There have been extensive studies done on what infants can feel (more info on that here) they are so developed, with all the new technology they can survive earlier and eariler out of the womb and on a basic level they look like babies!

So what does that have to do with vegetarianism? The thought came to me while watching this video

(make sure english CC is turned on)

So the little boy doesn’t want to eat octopus because (aw moment) we are here to take care for them, not kill them for food. Now I’m not a vegetarian, but that simple saying definitely pulled at my heart strings. As an adult I do recognize the uncomfortable truth of eating meat, that defenseless animals are no longer alive because I like eating meat more than I like going without. It’s not a necessity,  I don’t live somewhere where I’d die without it. The options of food are basically endless. I just want to eat bacon and so I do.

That’s why I find the arguments of “It’s not a murder, it’s a fetus, not a baby” so obtuse. It would be like me (as a meat eater) saying, It’s not a pig, it’s bacon. And when you hear stories of girls asking where the baby is at developmentally and being lied to?!  About will happen during an abortion? At best it’s misinformation about a fairly large and serious medical procedure and worst it’s unduly influencing a woman who, could potentially be the most vulnerable she has ever been, to get a procedure when the Truth would change everything.

This point of view is interesting and honest, really pulling in the human rights (which DOMA is all over.) Abortion is infanticide (and not just after 6 months, stop splitting hairs) I read an article, which I can’t find now (figures) in which the author had an abortion and basically said. I believe life starts at conception, but that doesn’t matter. It is killing a baby but the life of the mother counts more. They are both lives but not equal. Her honest and different approach was shocking and saddening. (Another article here.) Now, I agree we live in a imperfect world and the wish that everyone would either
A.) Be in a 2 parent household

B.) A stable single parent

C.) Adopt out their baby

is not going to happen, we are selfish sinners and people don’t want to do it. Maybe that will shift as demand increases? Adults are waiting longer and longer to start families, the need for adoption will just continue to rise.

So where does this leave us? Honestly, Prayer. Lots of it. and being the best support system you can be to family and friends alike. I have a teenage sibling who, were they to find themselves in a pregnancy situation, I would hope they would talk to me about it. Heck I’d even adopt their child, if that was what they wanted. I think that the church should be a huge support system to people going through this struggle. And I hope that if each and every person getting a abortion was simply well educated on what is happening (yes, they will feel pain, yes it is a life you are destroying, you have other options but are choosing not to use them) then it would greatly shift the scales, and I hope and pray more women would choose the harder path of carrying to term and adopting instead of abortion. As woman we were created to be mothers, we have that honor of carrying children, men and woman can be equal in every way but they will never be identical. God’s intent was for parents to stay together. So yes, it’s not ideal that in sex the woman has to be more careful or potentially end up with loads of responsibility. But sex and responsibility should go hand in hand. It’s a major decision and for all of our best efforts to separate them, it’s how it is.

I’ll leave you with this thought. It is not unheard of for character’s to have abortions on TV shows or Movies and people praise them for that. ‘Grey’s Anatomy’ is a a prime example, they show all sorts of medical procedures, some quite graphic. So why not show an abortion since it’s just a “mass of tissue.” I challenge you pro-choicer’s, show a realistic depiction of abortion on TV for one of your “empowered” women, on a “liberal” network.

Your ‘about me’ is vague, why so anonymous?

As of right now, I plan on sharing as little about myself as possible. I really need to feel that anonymity in order to feel like I can say whatever I want about these subjects without fear of repercussion. I attended a state university, which across the board seem to be pretty democratic and liberal as it is (oh ya, I’m conservative, politically speaking, too) pare down to a design/art school which I attended. Creative degrees are even more liberal & democratic as a general rule. But I made it. I graduated and (as far as I know) not that many people hated me. Upon graduation, I find myself in the industry. which is (surprise, surprise) super liberal & democratic. Also in this creative field (and many others I’m sure) the lines between professional and personal get awfully blurry. Now my fellow alum, other connections, friends of friends, professors, past and present co-workers and employers. All these people in this creative industry who are (in general) super liberal & democratic.

See where I’m coming from? I feel trapped in my social media: Twitter, Facebook, Pinterest even. I feel scrutinized and under the light, like I can’t say what I want. And in this community where I’m trying to make a living, is a community where people can, do and have been blacklisted, everything is about who you know and how much they like you.

I have no proof of this and yes, maybe it’s reaching but I was let go at a job. I was there for under a year, and the reason I was “let go” was financial. I was blessed and got a job immediately (literally started the monday after my last day of friday, Praise Jesus.) And it wasn’t until a few months later that I questioned the validity of it. Because a few months later, my boss hired someone else. Someone Democratic and liberal. You can’t say he didn’t know because my boss (being the outspoken small biz owner he is) literally asked me in my interview three laughable inappropriate questions. 1. My Political stance, 2. My religious beliefs and 3. “I see you’re married, you aren’t going to get pregnant soon are you?” 1. Republican 2. Christian and 3. Umm…Not planning on it? With each of the first 2 answers he responded with oh, we’re all Obama lovers here, and oh, we’re all atheists here. Concerting yes, but I still wanted the job and he hired my anyways, I was my non-confrontation self, I had a few meaningful conversations when my co-workers asked, and I made no attempts at hiding my beliefs but I was definitely passive about it.

Regardless, if I had thought about being more outspoken religiously or politically in social media or “creative” social situations, that was now squelched.

John 15:18-19 “If the world hates you, keep in mind that it hated me first. If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you.

Why are you writing this blog

I feel like it’s all inside, bubbling out. I’m terrified to start debates, talking about it at work (unsked, unsolicited) seems odd, even though other people have no problem talking to each other. I’m terrified to blast over my facebook. It’s pretty heated dinner table conversation  By nature I’m anti-confrontational, I feel like I’m not smart enough, not researched enough, don’t know greek etc. etc. It’s intimidating to “get into” such polarizing arguments. Even though. I truly believe it all boils down to What does the Bible say.

And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, that the power of Christ may dwell in me. Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ’s sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong. 2 Corinthians 12:9-10

SO awesome, guess I don’t need a theology dress after all. Because I have the power of Christ dwelling in me. But this is the beginning, As I age I do hope to continue to grow spiritually, learn, research and find more of a “voice.” But right now, I’m feeling good about saying what I want to say in an anonymous way. So hear that world?! I have some convictions and I’m gonna talk er type about them.

“what gives you the right to speak”

Well, I do have the right of free speech. Although I recently watched a video in which a Pastor addresses diversity and communication and said (half in jest) there seems to be 2 tenants  1. Absolute commitment to free speech 2. shut up. This is something I have experienced personally.  An attitude of “if you agree with me, say something, if you don’t ‘shut up & stop imposing your beliefs'”, as if my words are going to drag someone down a path they don’t want to go.

As far as my background goes. I was raised Christian, which (also from my experience) seem to give me less klout. Sometimes it feels as though people are thinking I’m a brainwashed, sheltered nobody who “was raised” this way and therefore lost her ability to think for herself. Which is insulting, first of all, and not true. Show me an adult Christian that hasn’t thought through what it means to be one, regardless of upbringing. We live in a world that, let’s be honest, would be amazingly easier to roll with the norms. To not cause a rukus, to agree with the “universal” train of thought. It’s not easy being a Christian and if you think it is. I invite you to come try it. anytime.

I was raised Christian, non-denominational. Plain Christian. Once I got a little I began to gradually “come into my own” I guess, become more responsible for my own life and decisions. And now, I daily make that choice to continue. I wholeheartedly believe that everything the Bible says is true and that Jesus did in fact die for my sins, he made the ultimate sacrifice and he never promised that this life is easy. I won’t stop following him just because it’s hard. I will say that having a Christian family does lessen the dinner table debates somewhat, which I am grateful for.

Proverbs 22:6 “Train up a child in the way he should go; even when he is old he will not depart from it.”

Hello World

well hi blogisphere,

I have a feeling a lot of these posts, rants and thoughts are going to feel like me yelling into a canyon. Not a echo canyon mind you, like the grand canyon. So hi, I’m K. and I’m a 20-something christian woman, living in this world that, well, seems to hate me. I’ve become increasingly pushed out of any semblance of a comfort zone and I kinda hate it. Lots of things make me uncomfortable, worried, nervous and as a friend of mine would say “anxiety level of 10.” I’m learning to be ok with that and I decided last night to start a blog voicing some of my ideas. and I choose this anonymous site because (honestly) I’m too afraid of confrontation to post on my facebook.

Deuteronomy 31:6 “So be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid and do not panic before them. For the Lord your God will personally go ahead of you. He will neither fail you nor abandon you.”