Your ‘about me’ is vague, why so anonymous?

As of right now, I plan on sharing as little about myself as possible. I really need to feel that anonymity in order to feel like I can say whatever I want about these subjects without fear of repercussion. I attended a state university, which across the board seem to be pretty democratic and liberal as it is (oh ya, I’m conservative, politically speaking, too) pare down to a design/art school which I attended. Creative degrees are even more liberal & democratic as a general rule. But I made it. I graduated and (as far as I know) not that many people hated me. Upon graduation, I find myself in the industry. which is (surprise, surprise) super liberal & democratic. Also in this creative field (and many others I’m sure) the lines between professional and personal get awfully blurry. Now my fellow alum, other connections, friends of friends, professors, past and present co-workers and employers. All these people in this creative industry who are (in general) super liberal & democratic.

See where I’m coming from? I feel trapped in my social media: Twitter, Facebook, Pinterest even. I feel scrutinized and under the light, like I can’t say what I want. And in this community where I’m trying to make a living, is a community where people can, do and have been blacklisted, everything is about who you know and how much they like you.

I have no proof of this and yes, maybe it’s reaching but I was let go at a job. I was there for under a year, and the reason I was “let go” was financial. I was blessed and got a job immediately (literally started the monday after my last day of friday, Praise Jesus.) And it wasn’t until a few months later that I questioned the validity of it. Because a few months later, my boss hired someone else. Someone Democratic and liberal. You can’t say he didn’t know because my boss (being the outspoken small biz owner he is) literally asked me in my interview three laughable inappropriate questions. 1. My Political stance, 2. My religious beliefs and 3. “I see you’re married, you aren’t going to get pregnant soon are you?” 1. Republican 2. Christian and 3. Umm…Not planning on it? With each of the first 2 answers he responded with oh, we’re all Obama lovers here, and oh, we’re all atheists here. Concerting yes, but I still wanted the job and he hired my anyways, I was my non-confrontation self, I had a few meaningful conversations when my co-workers asked, and I made no attempts at hiding my beliefs but I was definitely passive about it.

Regardless, if I had thought about being more outspoken religiously or politically in social media or “creative” social situations, that was now squelched.

John 15:18-19 “If the world hates you, keep in mind that it hated me first. If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you.

Why are you writing this blog

I feel like it’s all inside, bubbling out. I’m terrified to start debates, talking about it at work (unsked, unsolicited) seems odd, even though other people have no problem talking to each other. I’m terrified to blast over my facebook. It’s pretty heated dinner table conversation  By nature I’m anti-confrontational, I feel like I’m not smart enough, not researched enough, don’t know greek etc. etc. It’s intimidating to “get into” such polarizing arguments. Even though. I truly believe it all boils down to What does the Bible say.

And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, that the power of Christ may dwell in me. Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ’s sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong. 2 Corinthians 12:9-10

SO awesome, guess I don’t need a theology dress after all. Because I have the power of Christ dwelling in me. But this is the beginning, As I age I do hope to continue to grow spiritually, learn, research and find more of a “voice.” But right now, I’m feeling good about saying what I want to say in an anonymous way. So hear that world?! I have some convictions and I’m gonna talk er type about them.

“what gives you the right to speak”

Well, I do have the right of free speech. Although I recently watched a video in which a Pastor addresses diversity and communication and said (half in jest) there seems to be 2 tenants  1. Absolute commitment to free speech 2. shut up. This is something I have experienced personally.  An attitude of “if you agree with me, say something, if you don’t ‘shut up & stop imposing your beliefs'”, as if my words are going to drag someone down a path they don’t want to go.

As far as my background goes. I was raised Christian, which (also from my experience) seem to give me less klout. Sometimes it feels as though people are thinking I’m a brainwashed, sheltered nobody who “was raised” this way and therefore lost her ability to think for herself. Which is insulting, first of all, and not true. Show me an adult Christian that hasn’t thought through what it means to be one, regardless of upbringing. We live in a world that, let’s be honest, would be amazingly easier to roll with the norms. To not cause a rukus, to agree with the “universal” train of thought. It’s not easy being a Christian and if you think it is. I invite you to come try it. anytime.

I was raised Christian, non-denominational. Plain Christian. Once I got a little I began to gradually “come into my own” I guess, become more responsible for my own life and decisions. And now, I daily make that choice to continue. I wholeheartedly believe that everything the Bible says is true and that Jesus did in fact die for my sins, he made the ultimate sacrifice and he never promised that this life is easy. I won’t stop following him just because it’s hard. I will say that having a Christian family does lessen the dinner table debates somewhat, which I am grateful for.

Proverbs 22:6 “Train up a child in the way he should go; even when he is old he will not depart from it.”